Today ain't a good day.
I was depressed by today.
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When i was having class, what I want is to go home faster and write this post to release my feeling.
Cause I can't take it anymore.
But I cannot tell my family.
They will be very worry about it and keep asking me.
I can't write on facebook either.
So, here's the only place I can express on.
I know, I had those feeling everytime when I started to study in a new environment.
Pressure.
And furthermore, I always have the feeling that I am becoming more and more stupid.
My classmates are just awesome.
They are intelligent.
They are fast.
They have enthusiasm.
They have talent.
They have leadership.
THEY HAVE EVERYTHING.
And me....
I am nothing. =(
I fell like a piece of shit right there.
A piece of odourless shit cause even shit have a special smell can attract people.
But I just...nothing.
Nothing that maybe people don;t even know that I exist.
Friends are all stronger than me.
And people are like moving on and on with their super speed.
I am catching them.
Just catching. never overun them.
This is pathetic.
I don't want to be a damsel in distress.
But hell ya i am.
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I felt abandoned.
I felt like I am not in the kind of world.
I feel sad.
Sad.
Sad.
Sad.
Sad until I feel like I want to break into tears.
But I know this ain't going to help me.
When life gets harder.
All we need to do is to move on.
I know I can move on.
Till now,
I am still surviving.
This 18 year old ain't a honeymoon year for me,
This is the year which make me become more mature.
A year for a leap of the future.
Yes, I can!
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