Enthusiasm, I want you back.

Today ain't a good day.

I was depressed by today.
=(

When i was having class, what I want is to go home faster and write this post to release my feeling.

Cause I can't take it anymore.

But I cannot tell my family.

They will be very worry about it and keep asking me.

I can't write on facebook either.

So, here's the only place I can express on.

I know, I had those feeling everytime when I started to study in a new environment.

Pressure.

And furthermore, I always have the feeling that I am becoming more and more stupid.

My classmates are just awesome.

They are intelligent.

They are fast.

They have enthusiasm.

They have talent.

They have leadership.

THEY HAVE EVERYTHING.

And me....

I am nothing. =(

I fell like a piece of shit right there.

A piece of odourless shit cause even shit have a special smell can attract people.

But I just...nothing.

Nothing that maybe people don;t even know that I exist.

Friends are all stronger than me.

And people are like moving on and on with their super speed.

I am catching them.

Just catching. never overun them.

This is pathetic.

I don't want to be a damsel in distress.

But hell ya i am.

=(

I felt abandoned.

I felt like I am not in the kind of world.

I feel sad.

Sad.

Sad.

Sad.

Sad until I feel like I want to break into tears.

But I know this ain't going to help me.

When life gets harder.

All we need to do is to move on.

I know I can move on.

Till now,

I am still surviving.

This 18 year old ain't a honeymoon year for me,

This is the year which make me become more mature.

A year for a leap of the future.

Yes, I can!

=)